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My mom is gone
Aug. 30th, 2008 | 10:54 am
location: Hell on Earth
mood: 
crushed
I'm sorry to have to tell this. I know I told Chris at 1 this morning to make an entry to let our mutual friends know, but I remembered that Sami, Julia and Jonathan don't read Chris' journal.
My mom passed on early this morning. She had been having trouble breathing whenever she would get up for anything, and then she'd get all right. But about 12 a.m. she woke up unable to breathe and saying she was dying. Dad called 911 and I went in with her to keep telling her it was gonna be okay, help was on the way. Her arm was cold and I didn't like that. And she said to me, "It's too late".
So the medics got there pretty fast but I heard them say "her eyes are rolled back in her head" and they worked on her for a long time. I went outside and hid in the back yard. They took her to the hospital but I knew in my heart she couldn't be saved.
I got a call from some grief counselor type person who said "I'm here with your niece and father. Someone can pick you up to come be with them." Well of course I knew what happened. I said "No. I can't come. I'm very upset. I'm sorry."
Anyway, my cousin and aunt and my second cousins and uncle and cousin's husband all came to see us. They're very lovely people and strong Christians. Of course none of it really helps right now.
I've had a strange reaction to all this. I've cried and then other times, I'm complete emotionless and utter steel. People say I'm strong but it's not strong. It's a lot of things. It's anger, frustration, confusion, denial.
My mom was my best friend, you have to understand. I haven't had a real life friend in a long time since I got out of school. And I was home with mom a lot, we went shopping together, talked about our soaps together. I took care of her yesterday, planned to today.
Mom was always so good to us, she made sure we got what we wanted and always tried to do nice things for people.
Btw, she was only 65. I thought she was looking better honestly.
And poor dad is devastated and blaming himself because he didn't drive her to the doctor that day. Not that she had an accident on the way home or to there, it was on the way to our local Kmart to buy wipes on sale.
It's the fault of the doctors and hospital, they threw her out even though we have insurance and they didn't take her breathing problem seriously. They killed her, and by God they're not going to get away with it. They took my mom, my sister's mom, my dad's wife, my niece's grandmother, and a best friend from many, and they will be brought to justice if I have anything to do with it.
Mom had a lot of problems from her teen years on. Insecurity, falling in love with a boy that her parents didn't approve of, my sister's bad marriage, which she blamed herself for because she pushed Paul on my sister a bit, to keep neighbor's from picking on my sister for being shy and reclusive.
Btw, Sami, I've never told you the truth about my age and I hope you'll understand. I'm not really 22, I'm actually 32. I just didn't want you to know the truth because I thought you wouldn't want to talk to me or be friends with me and I really like your company. I do feel younger than I am, but it wasn't fair to keep the truth from you. I hope you can forgive me.
Also, anyone who would be willing to give me your phone number in my email, I'd love to talk to you by voice. Just for a little while. I know you're not a phone person Alex and neither am I, but even if just Sam wanted to talk, I'd love that.
I'd also love to talk to Lisa again, I know she's been through this and would understand and I would really love to talk to her.
Anyway, so, my life is forever changed in a bad way. I don't know if I'll ever really be right. None of us will.
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About the movie
Jun. 8th, 2008 | 03:28 pm
mood: awake
So it was really cool to see an Indy adventure again! There were great special effects and I really liked the climax scene.
The best special effect of all?
Cate Blanchett!
God, that woman is gorgeous! I couldn't take my eyes off her. She was so good in that role, she deserves to be nominated for the Academy Award for best supporting actress, I guess would be the category. Maybe lead? I don't know. But definitely she was my favorite part of the film.
I thought I'd be all fascinated with Karen Allen's Marion since I loved her in the first film, but nope, didn't really notice her in comparison to Cate's character.
What bothered me though about the film was the absence of certain characters from the previous films.
I'm not sure if this is the last installment or not, but by certain things about the ending I think it's a possibility, and besides with Harrison Ford's age and what not, who knows, it could be the last one.
So to me, they should have made efforts to include all of Indy's allies from previous films, even if not via the actors, then by mention.
*Spoiler warning below*
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I'm doing a meme too!
Dec. 12th, 2007 | 06:32 pm
mood: awake
music: Christmas music
I liked this meme Mary had, so I'm stealing it!
Name a fandom you know I like and I'll tell you
01. The first character I first fell in love with
02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
03. The character everyone else loves that I don't
04. The character I love that everyone else hates
05. The character I used to love but don't any longer
06. The character I would shag anytime
07. The character I'd want to be like
08. The character I'd slap
09. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise
Name a fandom you know I like and I'll tell you
01. The first character I first fell in love with
02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
03. The character everyone else loves that I don't
04. The character I love that everyone else hates
05. The character I used to love but don't any longer
06. The character I would shag anytime
07. The character I'd want to be like
08. The character I'd slap
09. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise
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Advice/Question about virus protection
Nov. 27th, 2007 | 06:06 pm
My Norton anti-virus and Spysweeper have both expired.
So now I need to renew.
Now, should I get Norton and Spysweeper again, or just get Norton, or get Spysweeper including their virus protection.
Recommendations, please.
So now I need to renew.
Now, should I get Norton and Spysweeper again, or just get Norton, or get Spysweeper including their virus protection.
Recommendations, please.
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Nov. 22nd, 2007 | 05:14 pm
I don't know what anyone else's plans are but I'll be unable to be on AIM tonight.
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Happy Birthday Nakago!
Nov. 18th, 2007 | 10:51 pm
mood: 
tired
On November 17, an angel called Ayuru Gi was born.
This beautiful innocent child who protected flowers was a flower himself, but one that was not protected.
Trampled and pulled apart, the delicate flower rose from the ashes and blossomed into a warrior angel called Nakago.
Wanting to spare the future of all the madness he'd experienced, Nakago made a crusade to bring peace to the world.
Now forever in our hearts, Nakago is still on that crusade, but from the halls of Heaven.
And he brings joy to those of us who love him.
Happy birthday, beautiful angel.
This beautiful innocent child who protected flowers was a flower himself, but one that was not protected.
Trampled and pulled apart, the delicate flower rose from the ashes and blossomed into a warrior angel called Nakago.
Wanting to spare the future of all the madness he'd experienced, Nakago made a crusade to bring peace to the world.
Now forever in our hearts, Nakago is still on that crusade, but from the halls of Heaven.
And he brings joy to those of us who love him.
Happy birthday, beautiful angel.
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Nov. 15th, 2007 | 04:42 pm
I'm not coming on AIM tonight and I don't know when I will be, so if you don't see me for a long time don't be surprised.
I don't want to talk about it but I'm having a lot of trouble. I wish I was dead.
I don't want to talk about it but I'm having a lot of trouble. I wish I was dead.
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Had to change my subject
Sep. 9th, 2007 | 05:04 pm
location: in front of a fan
mood: hot
music: ac/fans
Well, I was going to make an entry about a rare Hidan doujinshi on eBay and how it was pretty affordable, but it's sold! I'm so happy for you Hidan!^__________________________^ Thank you to whoever purchased that!
It's so important that any Hidan and/or Kakuzu fan show support for these characters by talking about them, writing about them, drawing them, defending them and buying any merchandise, even fan-made, of them.
That will speak to the world and hopefully to Masashi Kishimoto himself, this: that we love Hidan and Kakuzu and we are not satisfied with the way they were written out, and the audience would very much enjoy a return of these characters, or at least for them to be talked about and flashbacked to.
So, that's enough of my cheerleading for Hidan-sama (for now).XD
Well, there's not really anything new going on with me. I'm on lesson 33, the final part of it. I have to do my reports this coming week for that, and unlike the last set these ARE graded reports.
I plan to this week start lesson 34. There's a total of 39 lessons for this course, so as you can see I'm getting close to being done. I'll review it a lot before I go for a job in it though. I don't want to be shaky on any parts of it when I go to apply.
I hope next weekend to practice parallel parking with my niece for the driver's test.
So far I've gotten no calls from the school. That's good and bad. Good because it gives me more time to work on my studies. Bad because it means no money.
Oh but what I've been so happy about this week is, they played classic Scooby eps on CN! T and I have been in 7th Heaven.XD Of course, we know that this could very well be only temporary, since I may get called into work.
I'm thinking that if I don't get regular work soon, I may apply for part time at something like a McDonald's, when I'm done my lessons and am just reviewing. Just to make a little money until I get a job in my field.
And I'm reading D.Gray-man like you and Stacey recommended, Alex. So far I'm on page 35 of chapter 1, I like it so far! The concept seems cool, and Allen is a doll. He reminds me of Ed from FMA in the looks.
I'm still reading Eyeshield 21 too, I am on chapter 102. Getting close to the Poseidons!
I finished the Sasori arc like you asked, Alex. I do like Sasori now.XD I mean, I'm jealous he got a bg and Hidan didn't, but that's not Sasori's fault. I feel sorry for him. Maybe he's not really dead, what do you think?
I'm still depressed over Dei and Hidan but I have no choice but to live with it. Doesn't mean I won't go into "I want to die" mode again, but....let's just hope I don't.....even though I still refuse to believe Deidara's dead.
so anyway if I'm not on AIM this week much, it'll be that I'm busy doing schoolwork.
It's so important that any Hidan and/or Kakuzu fan show support for these characters by talking about them, writing about them, drawing them, defending them and buying any merchandise, even fan-made, of them.
That will speak to the world and hopefully to Masashi Kishimoto himself, this: that we love Hidan and Kakuzu and we are not satisfied with the way they were written out, and the audience would very much enjoy a return of these characters, or at least for them to be talked about and flashbacked to.
So, that's enough of my cheerleading for Hidan-sama (for now).XD
Well, there's not really anything new going on with me. I'm on lesson 33, the final part of it. I have to do my reports this coming week for that, and unlike the last set these ARE graded reports.
I plan to this week start lesson 34. There's a total of 39 lessons for this course, so as you can see I'm getting close to being done. I'll review it a lot before I go for a job in it though. I don't want to be shaky on any parts of it when I go to apply.
I hope next weekend to practice parallel parking with my niece for the driver's test.
So far I've gotten no calls from the school. That's good and bad. Good because it gives me more time to work on my studies. Bad because it means no money.
Oh but what I've been so happy about this week is, they played classic Scooby eps on CN! T and I have been in 7th Heaven.XD Of course, we know that this could very well be only temporary, since I may get called into work.
I'm thinking that if I don't get regular work soon, I may apply for part time at something like a McDonald's, when I'm done my lessons and am just reviewing. Just to make a little money until I get a job in my field.
And I'm reading D.Gray-man like you and Stacey recommended, Alex. So far I'm on page 35 of chapter 1, I like it so far! The concept seems cool, and Allen is a doll. He reminds me of Ed from FMA in the looks.
I'm still reading Eyeshield 21 too, I am on chapter 102. Getting close to the Poseidons!
I finished the Sasori arc like you asked, Alex. I do like Sasori now.XD I mean, I'm jealous he got a bg and Hidan didn't, but that's not Sasori's fault. I feel sorry for him. Maybe he's not really dead, what do you think?
I'm still depressed over Dei and Hidan but I have no choice but to live with it. Doesn't mean I won't go into "I want to die" mode again, but....let's just hope I don't.....even though I still refuse to believe Deidara's dead.
so anyway if I'm not on AIM this week much, it'll be that I'm busy doing schoolwork.
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More advertising for Hidan doujinshis
Sep. 7th, 2007 | 08:30 pm
location: Helping Hidan-land
mood: determined
Here's another doujinshi featuring Hidan on eBay:
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-YAOI-Doujins
This also features Deidara, Tobi, Kakuzu and Kisame.
You know the drill, Hidan fans: buy whatever Hidan merchandise you can to show your support for him! Show the world and Kishimoto that we HAVEN'T forgotten Hidan and we won't, either.
I'd buy it myself but since myself and my family is so low on money, I'm afraid to....dad would kill me if he saw the bill.
Also, Hidan and Hidan/Kakuzu fans, check out eBay for Body Buddy 2, get this one if you haven't, and YDH, another H/K one.
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-YAOI-Doujins
This also features Deidara, Tobi, Kakuzu and Kisame.
You know the drill, Hidan fans: buy whatever Hidan merchandise you can to show your support for him! Show the world and Kishimoto that we HAVEN'T forgotten Hidan and we won't, either.
I'd buy it myself but since myself and my family is so low on money, I'm afraid to....dad would kill me if he saw the bill.
Also, Hidan and Hidan/Kakuzu fans, check out eBay for Body Buddy 2, get this one if you haven't, and YDH, another H/K one.
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Hidan/Kakuzu doujinshis for sale on eBay
Sep. 3rd, 2007 | 08:26 pm
location: Hidan/Kakuzu fanclub
mood: determined
music: Stairway to Heaven by Led Zeppelin
There are two Hidan x Kakuzu doujinshis on sale on eBay right now.
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-Yaoi-Doujins
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-Yaoi-Doujins
This seller is really fast with shipping, and they usually put in a nice pretty card of some sort too.
Remember, Hidan and Kakuzu fans, to show your support for our characters by buying merchandise of them whenever you can. This will send the message to the world that these characters are still loved and that's the only way we'll get anything good out of this: more fanart, more fanfic, merchandise, good animation for their arc, and in the best case scenario, a return of the characters in the manga, in flashback or better.
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-Yaoi-Doujins
http://cgi.ebay.com/NARUTO-Yaoi-Doujins
This seller is really fast with shipping, and they usually put in a nice pretty card of some sort too.
Remember, Hidan and Kakuzu fans, to show your support for our characters by buying merchandise of them whenever you can. This will send the message to the world that these characters are still loved and that's the only way we'll get anything good out of this: more fanart, more fanfic, merchandise, good animation for their arc, and in the best case scenario, a return of the characters in the manga, in flashback or better.
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Happy New Year!
Jan. 1st, 2007 | 06:07 pm
location: the bed
mood: tired
music: Howie Day
To all of you who know my little phrase, Happy New Year's DEI to be precise! XD
I had some wine last night, boy it was good and relaxed me very nicely. And of course I had black eyed peas, yes I am superstitious.
So I have some resolutions and all, but they're just the usual but one is def. to get my license this year!
I'm tired from staying up late last night, so, uh, not much else to say.
I had some wine last night, boy it was good and relaxed me very nicely. And of course I had black eyed peas, yes I am superstitious.
So I have some resolutions and all, but they're just the usual but one is def. to get my license this year!
I'm tired from staying up late last night, so, uh, not much else to say.
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Got a new computer
Nov. 27th, 2006 | 06:15 pm
location: In front of my new computer
mood: indescribable
music: Keane CD
I took my niece Erica with me to the shop because she's much more knowledgable than I am about computers, and she thought a new one would be a better deal, so I got an HP laptop. Cost a lot of money, and I'm having to get used to the differences, but at least I can be back online. I really missed my internet, I need it to distract me when I get upset/depressed.
I'm about done my Christmas shopping, all my friends are done so that's cool.
Started decorating, but I still got a lot to do.
I'm kinda worried that I've got a cyst or tumor on my ovaries because I keep getting a pain in that area on my right side. Last night it was so annoying I couldn't fall asleep without my nerve pill. It didn't help that I'd watched a Hallmark movie with Alicia Silverstone about a girl with cancer. That'll be just great if I have to get my ovaries out. That'll dash my plans for having a baby for sure.
Thanksgiving was okay, 'cept I was annoyed by people asking me about my job plans. I never ask people about their personal lives, but ah well...guess I'm different.
I finally got to read the latest Naruto chapter I had to miss. Is it just me or is Hidan getting more beautiful with every chapter? And younger looking too. He'd have been perfect to be Sai's brother, but I know that's not going to happen. That would require making him human, and we can't have that now can we, or maybe St. Shikamaru might not be so noble and heroic with his plans to murder Hidan for the death of St. Asuma.-___- (Yes, I'm bitter about this, can ya tell?)
Aren't ya glad I'm back to bug you all?XD
I'm about done my Christmas shopping, all my friends are done so that's cool.
Started decorating, but I still got a lot to do.
I'm kinda worried that I've got a cyst or tumor on my ovaries because I keep getting a pain in that area on my right side. Last night it was so annoying I couldn't fall asleep without my nerve pill. It didn't help that I'd watched a Hallmark movie with Alicia Silverstone about a girl with cancer. That'll be just great if I have to get my ovaries out. That'll dash my plans for having a baby for sure.
Thanksgiving was okay, 'cept I was annoyed by people asking me about my job plans. I never ask people about their personal lives, but ah well...guess I'm different.
I finally got to read the latest Naruto chapter I had to miss. Is it just me or is Hidan getting more beautiful with every chapter? And younger looking too. He'd have been perfect to be Sai's brother, but I know that's not going to happen. That would require making him human, and we can't have that now can we, or maybe St. Shikamaru might not be so noble and heroic with his plans to murder Hidan for the death of St. Asuma.-___- (Yes, I'm bitter about this, can ya tell?)
Aren't ya glad I'm back to bug you all?XD
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Sep. 27th, 2006 | 08:17 pm
location: In an uncomfy chair
mood: 
amused
I had a dream that someone forced me to fight Gaara and naturally I lost, and he killed me. And then I was a ghost haunting the place I worked at, which in the dream had been a mansion (I was the servant). Hehe, it was funny in a weird way.
I went to KMart today and got a needle and thread finally for use on a couple things I'm making. (Erica had lost my other set) I did good driving.^___^ And tomorrow I'm applying online for a job there.
I got my costume for Halloween too, I'm being a pirate chick. I was sick of my YGO costume.XD
I've been practicing coloring/sketching for my Halloween picture I'm making. It's so fun drawing chibi Deidaras.XD But I find Sai harder to draw as a chibi. Maybe because Dei already has big eye(s), but Sai's are distinctly narrower, and most chibis have big eyes. So if I try to chibi-fy Sai, I end up taking away one of his most noticeable traits. I have used that picture he drew of himself in his art book to help me out, so we'll see...
Anyway tomorrow night I won't be online because I'm going out to dinner, and then, I'll be watching the Smallville season premiere.^____^
I went to KMart today and got a needle and thread finally for use on a couple things I'm making. (Erica had lost my other set) I did good driving.^___^ And tomorrow I'm applying online for a job there.
I got my costume for Halloween too, I'm being a pirate chick. I was sick of my YGO costume.XD
I've been practicing coloring/sketching for my Halloween picture I'm making. It's so fun drawing chibi Deidaras.XD But I find Sai harder to draw as a chibi. Maybe because Dei already has big eye(s), but Sai's are distinctly narrower, and most chibis have big eyes. So if I try to chibi-fy Sai, I end up taking away one of his most noticeable traits. I have used that picture he drew of himself in his art book to help me out, so we'll see...
Anyway tomorrow night I won't be online because I'm going out to dinner, and then, I'll be watching the Smallville season premiere.^____^
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Still having computer problems
Jul. 4th, 2006 | 05:45 pm
location: In love with Deidara
mood: 
annoyed
I'm still having a lot of trouble with the computer, despite what they said at the store it's still saying low battery, so something is wrong. I believe there's a virus despite what the guy at the store said, because my niece who is pretty tech. savvy said a virus can cause a computer to do anything odd.
The printer is not right either, it's not printing anything and claiming that ink has been used.
So I don't plan to be online much until this problem is fixed, as it could crap out at any time.
The printer is not right either, it's not printing anything and claiming that ink has been used.
So I don't plan to be online much until this problem is fixed, as it could crap out at any time.
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Feeling depressed again
Jun. 21st, 2006 | 04:49 pm
location: In depression over Deidara and other things land
mood: depressed
music: nothing
My father may have a health problem too, he was all sweaty and it wasn't even hot. My parents are old. One night I thought my mother was having a stroke. She came into my room at 3 a.m. and was slumped against the wall. Turned out she had taken an extra sleeping pill and was disoriented, but when my father and I asked her if she'd taken too many pills, that night she said no so we didn't know what was going on. Only next morning did she tell the truth.
Anyway, then, my sister came over and was like, "You don't mind walking over to my house this weekend to pick up my mail do you? I know it's not a short walk, but....I have a check coming, and I'm not sure if Joanne (her neighbor) can pick it up 'cause she's going away that weekend too (my family is going to the beach this weekend, I chose to stay home with the cat, I plan to go in July).
So I said, "can I call Joanne and find out if she's got the mail Friday before I walk out there? Cause it's kind of a long walk and it might be hot and I get dizzy a lot." And that sent my sister off. She was like, "no you can't call her, I shouldn't even have asked, everything's a big deal, just forget it, you don't want to do it, Joanne didn't want to do"...whine, whine, whine. Then she stormed out.
Then, I'm depressed worrying about Deidara again. I just know his story is a Pegasus story and I cant take it. I love him so much and I can't take hearing about his sappy love life with some sappy girl. Or maybe she's tough, I don't know, but I just know that I don't want anyone with him.
And once Deidara DOES get his backstory or whatever, I won't be able to talk to my online friends anymore because I can't bear to hear everyone say how cute they are together.
Anyway, then, my sister came over and was like, "You don't mind walking over to my house this weekend to pick up my mail do you? I know it's not a short walk, but....I have a check coming, and I'm not sure if Joanne (her neighbor) can pick it up 'cause she's going away that weekend too (my family is going to the beach this weekend, I chose to stay home with the cat, I plan to go in July).
So I said, "can I call Joanne and find out if she's got the mail Friday before I walk out there? Cause it's kind of a long walk and it might be hot and I get dizzy a lot." And that sent my sister off. She was like, "no you can't call her, I shouldn't even have asked, everything's a big deal, just forget it, you don't want to do it, Joanne didn't want to do"...whine, whine, whine. Then she stormed out.
Then, I'm depressed worrying about Deidara again. I just know his story is a Pegasus story and I cant take it. I love him so much and I can't take hearing about his sappy love life with some sappy girl. Or maybe she's tough, I don't know, but I just know that I don't want anyone with him.
And once Deidara DOES get his backstory or whatever, I won't be able to talk to my online friends anymore because I can't bear to hear everyone say how cute they are together.
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School and driving school is out
Jun. 15th, 2006 | 08:11 pm
location: In love with Deidara-sama
mood: calm
Yep, this week the school year finished, and I finished Driver's Ed. classroom time yesterday. I do have to go driving with the instructor/s though. The first session is this Saturday. I'm very nervous. I'm so afraid I'm going to screw up and the guy's going to be like, you suck, you'll never be a driver!
Anyhow, if I do end up ever getting a license, I'm thinking about what vehicle I'll want if I ever come into some money someday.
Well I like this thing that I think is called a Scion, but my friend Chris said they're not good. Then I also like this thing called a Lexus GX6 or something. I know anything Lexus is expensive though. Of course I'd love a brand new car, but I expect to get a used.
The most important thing is that it be the safest ride available. We learned about all these features that are supposed to make driving safer than ever, so I'm going to look for a car that has that.
I read chapter 311 of Naruto. I really liked it. It had some sweet character development for Sai, and he met Kakashi for the first time.
I can't wait till Deidara-sama comes back, and yet I'm terrified at the same time...............he's so amazing..............
I had a funny dream last night, that there was this adorable fanart of Dei on the computer and I wanted to save it, and I hadn't, so I wanted to find it again. And Temari was in my house, and she had the art but she had hidden it and I was having to look for it. And I told my father she wouldn't tell me where the art was, and he was like, yeah, she's kinda cold, and I was like, yeah, all the Sand nin are cold.XD
I've been dreaming about the nin hanging out in trees. I wish I could look for Dei in a tree, I'd search every tree on this planet if I thought he was in one! But Dei grew up in the rock village, so he might not hang in trees like the Konoha guys.XD
I still need to get stuff for my Otakon costume, and register. I also want to get ink for my printer and get the cord fixed so I can print all the fanart of Deidara-sama that I find.^______________________^ *must own as much Deidara-sama stuff as possible* <3
Anyhow, if I do end up ever getting a license, I'm thinking about what vehicle I'll want if I ever come into some money someday.
Well I like this thing that I think is called a Scion, but my friend Chris said they're not good. Then I also like this thing called a Lexus GX6 or something. I know anything Lexus is expensive though. Of course I'd love a brand new car, but I expect to get a used.
The most important thing is that it be the safest ride available. We learned about all these features that are supposed to make driving safer than ever, so I'm going to look for a car that has that.
I read chapter 311 of Naruto. I really liked it. It had some sweet character development for Sai, and he met Kakashi for the first time.
I can't wait till Deidara-sama comes back, and yet I'm terrified at the same time...............he's so amazing..............
I had a funny dream last night, that there was this adorable fanart of Dei on the computer and I wanted to save it, and I hadn't, so I wanted to find it again. And Temari was in my house, and she had the art but she had hidden it and I was having to look for it. And I told my father she wouldn't tell me where the art was, and he was like, yeah, she's kinda cold, and I was like, yeah, all the Sand nin are cold.XD
I've been dreaming about the nin hanging out in trees. I wish I could look for Dei in a tree, I'd search every tree on this planet if I thought he was in one! But Dei grew up in the rock village, so he might not hang in trees like the Konoha guys.XD
I still need to get stuff for my Otakon costume, and register. I also want to get ink for my printer and get the cord fixed so I can print all the fanart of Deidara-sama that I find.^______________________^ *must own as much Deidara-sama stuff as possible* <3
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Glad it's Friday night
Jun. 2nd, 2006 | 06:39 pm
location: Next to pics of Deidara-sama
mood: awake
music: fan
I'm happy for the weekend coming up.
I'm pleased with how chapter 309 of Naruto came out because Sasuke left and didn't kill Sai. And I hope he never does!
There was also mention of Akatsuki, so I'm thinking my beloved angel might be coming back soon.^_______________^ Is that good or bad for me? I don't know.....good because I totally want to see him again, but bad because I may not like whatever his story is going to be.;_;
Driving school is going all right, I suppose. It's boring, but goes kinda fast. The instructor seems kinda nice. He always makes silly jokes. The kids are such grumps they don't even laugh.XD
Last night was a total joke. We had a substitute, so some boys in the class thought that meant a vacation, and they talked and acted bad the entire class. I couldn't hear over the teacher or the video tapes she showed between them and the thunder. At one point they were even going to lock her in a closet.-_- Thank God we had no quiz last night. Every night we have a quiz and if we pass them all, no final exam, so I really want to pass them all.
I noticed I'm the only person who brings a notebook to take notes. I don't get how the kids memorize the info. so fast and take the quiz and pass.XD I feel stupid that I have to take notes but oh well.
I did a little driving today, to Casa Mia's restaurant. I did okay.^^
I'm pleased with how chapter 309 of Naruto came out because Sasuke left and didn't kill Sai. And I hope he never does!
There was also mention of Akatsuki, so I'm thinking my beloved angel might be coming back soon.^_______________^ Is that good or bad for me? I don't know.....good because I totally want to see him again, but bad because I may not like whatever his story is going to be.;_;
Driving school is going all right, I suppose. It's boring, but goes kinda fast. The instructor seems kinda nice. He always makes silly jokes. The kids are such grumps they don't even laugh.XD
Last night was a total joke. We had a substitute, so some boys in the class thought that meant a vacation, and they talked and acted bad the entire class. I couldn't hear over the teacher or the video tapes she showed between them and the thunder. At one point they were even going to lock her in a closet.-_- Thank God we had no quiz last night. Every night we have a quiz and if we pass them all, no final exam, so I really want to pass them all.
I noticed I'm the only person who brings a notebook to take notes. I don't get how the kids memorize the info. so fast and take the quiz and pass.XD I feel stupid that I have to take notes but oh well.
I did a little driving today, to Casa Mia's restaurant. I did okay.^^
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Checking in again
May. 27th, 2006 | 07:18 pm
location: In a glow of love for Deidara-sama
mood: content
music: sound: fan whirring
Well I haven't written in a while (I noticed you were checking for entries in your email, Jon, hehe, it wasn't really depression keeping me from making any as much as laziness).
Well next week I start driving school which I am not happy about, but oh well, my father is making me....telling me how much I need to do it.-_-
Those of you who talk to me in chat know about the accident last week, but Jon you don't, so why I don't want to take driving school is, last week mom bumped a car backing out of a parking space, and even though it was minor, the other people acted like nuts about it, so I think driving sucks.
I also think it's a waste of money.
Anyway, I'm not getting a vehicle though until I can get one that's actually from the 2000's and not the 1980's and 1990's (Yes, my family actually still drives that stuff).
I hung up a hummingbird feeder on a tree today.XD Dad had gotten it for me for Christmas years ago.XD; Anyway, we need to plant special flowers though to attract them.
Well, not much else to say, I'm still in love with Deidara-sama and I wrote him another poem, I just have to post it sometime.
Yes, I still get bouts of depression about him, but then again I've been feeling sick on and off lately and I realize that I need to enjoy my time with him because it could very well be limited if I am on my way out.
I am so glad we have Monday off. I want to watch Price is Right with Nakago. XD *he's still my buddy*
Only 11 more days of the school year,woohoo!
Well next week I start driving school which I am not happy about, but oh well, my father is making me....telling me how much I need to do it.-_-
Those of you who talk to me in chat know about the accident last week, but Jon you don't, so why I don't want to take driving school is, last week mom bumped a car backing out of a parking space, and even though it was minor, the other people acted like nuts about it, so I think driving sucks.
I also think it's a waste of money.
Anyway, I'm not getting a vehicle though until I can get one that's actually from the 2000's and not the 1980's and 1990's (Yes, my family actually still drives that stuff).
I hung up a hummingbird feeder on a tree today.XD Dad had gotten it for me for Christmas years ago.XD; Anyway, we need to plant special flowers though to attract them.
Well, not much else to say, I'm still in love with Deidara-sama and I wrote him another poem, I just have to post it sometime.
Yes, I still get bouts of depression about him, but then again I've been feeling sick on and off lately and I realize that I need to enjoy my time with him because it could very well be limited if I am on my way out.
I am so glad we have Monday off. I want to watch Price is Right with Nakago. XD *he's still my buddy*
Only 11 more days of the school year,woohoo!
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This weekend will probably suck
Mar. 31st, 2006 | 03:40 pm
location: With Nakago, where I always want to be
mood: stressed
Well as most of you know I have my final exam on Monday for my night class, so....that means I have to study all weekend. It's got 100 questions, I honestly don't feel that between my notes and the handouts, we even have enough material to make a 100 question test, but somehow we do apparently.-___- And I asked one of the people about it who's taken this course before (and is just repeating it because they don't need a credit and they like it.XD) if this test is hard, and they said it's harder than you'd think. Well, they heard that, I don't think they ever took the test.
So if I don't pass this test, I'm in big trouble because then I don't get my credit. So please, send me prayers/wishes for good luck.
We're supposed to go on the field trip tomorrow. I'd like to go. But it's cutting into my study time. To me, he should have had the trip the week before this one, not now during a day we should be using for study.
We were supposed to go to the mall today, I was going to get maybe an outfit for Easter and a sweater from Hollister's that I've been wanting forever, but I was too sick today to go. I'm having trouble with my stomach...well, abdomen I should say.>< I got sick last night about 6:00 and thought it was possibly the yogurt I ate that made me sick, but as I was trying to sleep last night and this morning, I had horrible stomach cramps. I should have stayed home, but....well, anyway... I would think I just picked up something but I had the same problem last Saturday night (which made me miss the beginning of Princess Mononoke), so I'm worried this is something else. And may become chronic. So again, prayers/well wishes would be much appreciated.
I won't go on the field trip if I don't feel well tomorrow. I'll probably skip the last YYH ep since it's on at such a dumb time and I don't want to be tired. Oh well, the part I like is over anyway.XD
So I won't be able to be online much if at all this weekend. I'll try to update the RP once a day though.
Oh, btw (Ponko) Alex, the Lee icon you showed in the chat last night was really cute! Was that fanart? Or him acting that way over Sakura?^_~
So if I don't pass this test, I'm in big trouble because then I don't get my credit. So please, send me prayers/wishes for good luck.
We're supposed to go on the field trip tomorrow. I'd like to go. But it's cutting into my study time. To me, he should have had the trip the week before this one, not now during a day we should be using for study.
We were supposed to go to the mall today, I was going to get maybe an outfit for Easter and a sweater from Hollister's that I've been wanting forever, but I was too sick today to go. I'm having trouble with my stomach...well, abdomen I should say.>< I got sick last night about 6:00 and thought it was possibly the yogurt I ate that made me sick, but as I was trying to sleep last night and this morning, I had horrible stomach cramps. I should have stayed home, but....well, anyway... I would think I just picked up something but I had the same problem last Saturday night (which made me miss the beginning of Princess Mononoke), so I'm worried this is something else. And may become chronic. So again, prayers/well wishes would be much appreciated.
I won't go on the field trip if I don't feel well tomorrow. I'll probably skip the last YYH ep since it's on at such a dumb time and I don't want to be tired. Oh well, the part I like is over anyway.XD
So I won't be able to be online much if at all this weekend. I'll try to update the RP once a day though.
Oh, btw (Ponko) Alex, the Lee icon you showed in the chat last night was really cute! Was that fanart? Or him acting that way over Sakura?^_~
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Updating for friends
Feb. 21st, 2006 | 07:29 pm
I haven't updated in a while, so....I hope you are reading this Jonathan, because I haven't had a chance to answer your email yet, and the journal at Diary X is down.
Well, yesterday I had to go to the doctor for a follow up exam and she had me get a chest x-ray because I told her I've been having a sharp pain in my left lung. I told her I used to be a smoker. She didn't think it was anything serious, but she said I could have the x-ray. Well, I'm worried now because I didn't take my belly button ring off, and the guy said to take off all jewelry above the waist (well I didn't have to take earrings and rings off, or bracelet/watch. He said just what would be in the chest area, like my necklaces.) But, I didn't even think of the navel ring. He said the x-ray took properly, but what if the radiation hit the metal or something? Bah...
And also, I'm worried about the costs. Our insurance doesn't cover many tests, if any.
I'm possibly going to the movies tomorrow night with my parents. It's to see some British movie, I forget the title, it stars Judi Dench and Bob Hoskins, who I've heard of but that's it, never saw 'em in anything.
Well, not much else to say. I got my YGO Millenium Items today, they are awesome. And I got offered to buy the Shikamaru plush I was outbid on when the person didn't pay, so I bought that. I'll have to tell mom to keep an eye out for him, because after we had the robbery next door which I told most of you about, I've been worried about my mail being stolen.
Well, yesterday I had to go to the doctor for a follow up exam and she had me get a chest x-ray because I told her I've been having a sharp pain in my left lung. I told her I used to be a smoker. She didn't think it was anything serious, but she said I could have the x-ray. Well, I'm worried now because I didn't take my belly button ring off, and the guy said to take off all jewelry above the waist (well I didn't have to take earrings and rings off, or bracelet/watch. He said just what would be in the chest area, like my necklaces.) But, I didn't even think of the navel ring. He said the x-ray took properly, but what if the radiation hit the metal or something? Bah...
And also, I'm worried about the costs. Our insurance doesn't cover many tests, if any.
I'm possibly going to the movies tomorrow night with my parents. It's to see some British movie, I forget the title, it stars Judi Dench and Bob Hoskins, who I've heard of but that's it, never saw 'em in anything.
Well, not much else to say. I got my YGO Millenium Items today, they are awesome. And I got offered to buy the Shikamaru plush I was outbid on when the person didn't pay, so I bought that. I'll have to tell mom to keep an eye out for him, because after we had the robbery next door which I told most of you about, I've been worried about my mail being stolen.